Sorry

Sorry butI don't care about what goes on ---------. I don't care -----------------. I'm usually empathetic, I cry ----------, and it's not like ---------------------------- but I honestly don't care. I have no more patience, and nothing more ----------. --- already took from me ---------. My ---------------------------- , you. I can't empathize. I don't care. Sorry, I just don't.

If I'm going to cry for any bad guy, I'm crying for you. You're the bad guy who didn't know better. You're the bad guy pushed to this situation. But ----------------------------------. So ----------.

A million things to say

But it comes down to "I miss you" and "I hope you miss me too".

Waking up.

I hate waking up in the morning. It gives me the opportunity to remember and establish the things I don't want to, like the fact you aren't mine anymore, for one. And that I begin work in two hours for another.

Although I feel so alone and hurt and betrayed, it doesn't matter at all when I'm with you. It's like nothing ever happened. I can even now swallow down the fact you don't feel the same.

Maybe because I'm holding fast to hope.

Mostly because I still have you in my life.

And I know you need me, somehow. :3

Actually my second post.

Before, I used to have terrible visions of monsters and ghosts when I closed my eyes to sleep. They used to bother me awake sometimes and make me sick when I saw them.

But now I see something worse when I close my eyes. Something that makes me feel so sick inside. Something that makes me welcome the gruesome creatures who bothered me before. Take these visions away.

I'm holding out until this doesn't bother me anymore.